November 5, 2011

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I find it odd that, when I was younger, I used to think I was so uninteresting that nobody would ever wanna talk to me. And despite that, I had a lot of friends who were constantly fighting over me. Just because I was the girl who could never say no to someone (because I didn't think I had the right or power to do so). Of course that made it natural for them to wanna be my friends. Fucked up. I was used all the time and I didn't even notice until years later.

And now I'm that girl who talks to strangers, gets super social and embarrasses her shyer friends.

I can't stand it when somebody lets other people use them and boss them around without having the guts to speak up.

And I don't even know what made me change so I never seem to be able to help them. It makes me so frustrated I don't know what to do.

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if you're trying to bring me down: try not to give me attention, because that's quite flattering and I'm fairly sure that's not what you had in mind.

if not: if I ever meet you I'll give you a cookie! <3